God used my hesitation. My jaw dropped as I read his response. I didn’t know about the meeting and I couldn’t seem to process the feelings of “wow, I really heard God speak” because only He can orchestrate those puzzle pieces into place in such perfect rhythm – even when I already conceding to messing it up by hesitating.
Some time may be passing and you can’t see a finish line. You may feel forgotten. Stay close to the steadfast love of God. He holds you close, not for some time, but for all time.
In middle school I remember a lie someone started about me – it was wild and far from true. Even though I knew the truth, the lie existing gutted me. My middle school confidence never hit a real high point (it’s middle school… does any one have great middle school confidence?), but nothing tanked my confidence as this lie. Did people believe it? With only 14 people in my class, I assumed everyone already heard (especially with one very talented…
Between the four-hours in the car and time riding horses, I hoped my brain could wrestle loose the conflict between my head and my heart to figure out what the heck I was going to do.